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(1 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) [02 Sep 2005|01:07pm] wow its been like forever since i have written in this thing....life is alright i suppose...im leaving for college in two days, im nervous/ scared/ excited all at the same time....i dont like change too much and this is going to be a big change...i already miss ryan and i havent even left yet....i hope we can stay together through this....im scared....and im gonna miss mikey so much he better come up to bridgewater as much as possible......hopefully im not some big loser on campus that no one wants to talk to lol.....me n heather are roommates though so it should be lots of fun!

(2 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) TODAY!!!!!!! [19 Feb 2005|10:38am] [ mood | depressed ] SUX MORE THAN ANY OTHER DAY....I DON'T THINK I HAVE CRIED SO MUCH IN ONE DAY THAT I HAVE TODAY.....I HATE WHEN U KNOW PPL R GOING TO DIE......MY PAPA(GRANDFATHER) WELL ISN'T DOING TO WELL....ALMOST LOST HIM LAST NITE BUT N0W HE IS ON LIFE SUPPORT...THEY DON'T THINK THAT HE IS GOING TO MAKE IT.....GOD I HATE LIFE....I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO SEE HIM ATLEAST ONE MORE TIME....SO WHO KNOWS..IF MY MOM FLIES DOWN TO FLORIDA TO SEE HIM ILL MOST LIKELY GO TOO....SO YA I GO INTO WORK THIS MORNING AFTER RECEIVING THE PHONE CALL FROM MY GRANDMA AND I THOUGHT THAT ID B OKAY....NOPE DIDN;T HAPPEN...I COULDN;T STOP CRYING SO THEY HAD TO SEND ME HOME.....NOW I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO GO OUT WITH GREG TONITE...THAT WILL HOPEFULLY MAKE ME IN A BETTER MOOD AND TAKE MY MIND OFF OF THINGS P.S. MIKEY AND HEATHER IT PRETTY MUCH DISAPPEARED!!!!

(3 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) u make me wanna lala [18 Feb 2005|01:33pm] [ mood | cheerful ] life has been awesome lately...im really happy with the way things seem to be going!!!!!!! my stomach itches- i got a little burnt in the cancer box yesterday...ouch! i think im finally starting to c results from the gym...thats always fun!!! o ya did pilates this week.....hurt like a bitch....but i liked it.... heathers senior night last night...her gay fucking coach wouldn't even put her in...me n mikey even held up a sign the read Quote "PUT HEATHER IN" ya what a dushbag.... skipped school today...guess mr. O is kinda mad o well.... can't wait for tomarrow!!!!! dinner and a movie.....im excited! no plans for tonite yet...i kinda just feel like hanging out and not doing much......

(1 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) [12 Feb 2005|06:40pm] [ mood | flirty ] [ music | simple plan ] wow its been awhile since i updated this.....life is good right now!!! i've mostly just been hanging out with mikey and sara wally and heather on the weekends....DISCO BOWLING PPL! its the greatest! boy department= :-D!

(2 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) dont want a subject [01 Feb 2005|04:27pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | kelley clarkson ] today we changed classes in school.....now i have a rly hard schedule...grrrrrr it goes Calculus, Anatomy, VHS, and then sci-tech......im going to be struggling..... after school today I was supposed to be oging to the gym...well ya i was too lazy to go....so i stayed at home in my pj's and pretty soon I have to go into work....i rly don't want...I AHTE WALMART thesedays... I have 3 more days until the weekedn....is that sad that I can't wait until the weekends......i rly just hate school...maybe i will drop out and get my GED.....sounds like a good idea to me!..... alrite i gotta go switch over my laundry so im out

(4 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) [22 Jan 2005|07:23pm] Its been awhile since i updated this fo-shit and im bored so im updating. its snowing and i cant go out tonite./...my mom wont let me drive in the waether thats probably good i need to recover from last night....that has got to be my last day partying for awhile...i was so fucked up....but ya me n greg were the awesomeist beruit team ever.....unless i am just imagingin this i kinda couldnt see straight.....overall i had a FANTASTIC night! work sucked today...i felt like i was gonna pass out....it was not fun ...not one bit... o ya i saw in good company yesterday with maxwell....it was excellent...then we got some nice quality smoothies from Orange Julius....then his car broke.. :-( it woulndt go in reverse.... ok well now im bored of this so im gonna go....

(1 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) Past few days have rocked! [10 Dec 2004|02:01pm] wednesday was wicked great.....attended a small get together at maxs...it was allotta fun.....SQUASHES...enough said on that subject....lol.... thursday went to the southern NH university.......it was alrite....it made me decide not to apply there....it rly is not a college to pay 30,000 a year for...im set on going to bridgewater! max picked me up to go get my car then i took a ride with him and tyler to get maxs sis in hardwick where we went out for pizza...it was delicious....then went over davids for a bit....talked to the fam....and brittanys mom rocks...then to maxs until 10... tonite should be awesome...i cant wait for maxs party...its gonna b HUGE tonite..... (p.s. its really nice how girls that can have random sex nites with ppl can call me a slut for what i did....it was not done seriously and grow up!) geeeeez i hate when ppl start highschool drama....i rly cant wait to b out of this town.

(Close my eyes) Its been awhile [07 Dec 2004|02:48pm] since i have written in this bitch...... my life hasn't been too exciting lately thou... hmmmm..............i've gone disco bowling...that was fun! work all the time now...grrrrrrrrrr...but i called out today i dont wanna work today this weekend hmmmmmmmmmmm first i went to joels on friday nite....bc he rocks my world then we went over dylans where kelley and mikey and seth and rob and steph were...good time then we transfered over to robs...alrite nite i suppose...then me n kelley went to walmart in the mornin to buy pancake mix so we could all make ourselves breakfast....then had to work then hung out with heather and ace and max and tyler at mcdonalds then i went home to sleep bc i was rly exhausted from the nite b4.... and now its tuesday and yup thats bout it...

(3 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) THIS WEEKEND SUCKED..... [18 Oct 2004|02:54pm] [ mood | blank ] ....rly bad Friday Night...had dave, brittany and ashlinn over...we watched a movie....me kelley n mikey went to betters...then went home for 12 to my dads...kelley slept over Saturday Night I decided to have a party...wow was that a big mistake....like 30 ppl showed up, 2 of which only bringing alcohol...i mean jeez who goes to a party and brings no alcohol....ah well...so it was a dry party and sucked...i mean if i had the option to of left i would have...LOL....ya i got caught for that so called "party" which rly sux...too bad it wasn't good then i wouldnt have cared if i got caught..... thATS all

(2 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) WoW [15 Oct 2004|03:19pm] [ mood | amused ] its been about almost a full year since i started this LJ and 200 entries later I decided to read back from the beginning some of the entries.. -i rly grew up i think since then....allot of my entries we pretty retarded and stupid and ditzy i must say it reminded me of umm pinnocio gone bad...lol...(inside joke) -i had some very bad guys problems...i took things to seriously about them and jeez looked how all of them turned out.lol. -it rly made me think about allot of ppl that a rarely talk to anymore and made me miss them. -i remembered many things that totally slipped my mind. tonite dunno what i am going to do but i think im gonna lay down and watch mean girls shower straighten hair then GO OUT!

(1 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) [12 Oct 2004|12:05pm] huh yesterday hung out with brittany...went to friendlys as kelley was getting out so we ate and MATT SMITH was there and sat with us and it was great! i miss him...he is like the funniest greatest person in the world and it is his 22nd bday today! margy i think hates me now...grrrrr....it is so confusing and sux....i was gonna go over after the movies we rented was done being watched...we didnt think theyd b home at 930 i was expecting 1030 atleast...so ya she was mad....which sux rly bad....

(2 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) [11 Oct 2004|11:00am] [ mood | shitty ] this weekend was pretty good..... Saturday party at curt's....tons of his cathedral friends came and then the ware kids...ya it was kinda seperated...I WAS BERUIT PARTNERS WITH ROBERT BERAGUARD(sp?)...we did allrite...I wore my light up flip flops....they were a hit...lol....then i went to cory m's later...then slept at daveys in mantown.... yesterday worked....french canadians r here....(mixed feelings) i mean they r cool but its just kinda weird that they drove all this way...and ware sux so there is nothing to do and i feel bad and they had no where to sleep last nite so they slept in there car :-(......but we went to des. last nite...not much ppl there so we went home.....margy wants me to go to boston today with her and the canadians(jd and alex) but i rly can't i feel bad...i would wanna go but i seriously have $38 to last me until next thursday...that is a very tight budget...so i dunno what she expects me to do...(she just called me) so now im back....man i feel horrible but i rly hope she understands I CANT AFFORD IT....hopefully she accepts my offer and decides to just hang out and then we can go to a movie or something....now i feel like shit wonderful.... im out....

(2 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) SATs BLOW THE BIG ONE [09 Oct 2004|05:10pm] [ mood | cheerful ] i definetly barely tried bc there rly was no need since i already had an 1120 the first time around...i will be so surprised if i did well... ya most embarrassing thing happened in my testing room to me today...well yup u have to shut the ringers off on ur phones which i did but i was unaware that my alarm was set for lets say 930am...yup and my alarm is a rooster...so of course in the middle of the test it goes off...i was rly embarrassed....lol... came home slept out tonite...cant wait for the captain!

(Close my eyes) [08 Oct 2004|04:21pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | blink182 ] right now i am eating some kinda nasty soup while listening to blink182...bored outta my mind and tired and sore...grrrrrrrr...sore bc well ill explain...i come home to my dads today bc that is where i am staying while my parents r in FL without me(ya those jerks)so i get here..at my dads and no one is here...im pretty pissed bc i dont have the key with me...which meant i was locked out...but after complaining and bitching i decided to try to find a window or sumthing ya no to break in....well the window that was unlocked was the one into my fathers room...i climb up on a chair and have to slide inbetween this small space bc the window was like stuck and wouldnt go up nemore...so i start to slide in and baboom fall...and my legs hurt because the window scratched me up...it was very tramatizing....BUT I AM OKAY! tomarrow is SATs and i am fucked i dont have a calculator i forgot to get one in school....so i dunno what to do....oopps...so if neone has a scientific calculator that they r willing to let me borrow tomarrow that would b excellent. prob doin absolutly nothing tonite...tried to get ahold of cory but hes not home and doesnt have the cell phone which sucks rly bad...i was gonna have him come over and watch The Shining bc i have to watch it for my vhs class...so who knows maybe hell call me and i can have him come over tonite!

(Close my eyes) [06 Oct 2004|07:54pm] huh work has sucked horribly for the past two days...like 6 ppl called out each nite which meant of course that both nites i had to be on the side where there was only o lets say 3 CASHIERS...ya i was pissed...now i no what a bitch it is when i call out...i feel kinda bad now...it was ridiculus.....ya and cory didnt come in....wonder if we r still hanging out tomarrow...i hope so. i get outta school early tomarrow..yay...to bring the parents to the airport////they r going to florida without me.... well im out

(Close my eyes) none needed [04 Oct 2004|07:49pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | blink 182- like violence ] hmmmmmmm....today was just an ordinarily boring day at WHS...i cant think of nething merely exciting to write about.....hmmmmmmmm... ahhh well vhs sux rly bad i have this partener assignment and the teaher didnt add the goup discussion thing for us so i dont know how we r going to work on it...which sux....so i dunno what to do about that ya then i got outta school...came home...slept until like 530...it was pretty great im not gonna lie. can't wait for thursday... :-) thats it. bye.

(Close my eyes) [03 Oct 2004|05:42pm] O wow the first entry did post...weird....lol...so now u got two about the smae thing

(Close my eyes) [03 Oct 2004|05:38pm] I am pissed i just wrote like this whole book and it got deleted im pissed...that is bullshit here is what it was about -monson boys came to the game....so i gotz to c Cory...then we all went and hung out at pawels i played ping pong with cory...it was loads of fun! -sta cory couldnt go out he got in trouble with his madre for getting a speeding ticket so i went o curts -it was fun -hanging out with cory thursday hopefully...yup yup cant wait -cant stay home when my parents r in florida but i got a room downstairs...it is awesome i am excited....

(2 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) No SUBJECT needed [03 Oct 2004|05:28pm] I must say this was a very interestingly fun weekend! Friday I went to the boys soccer game with amanda, joel, tyler.  I Made a shirt my my awesome friend DAVID NEFFINGER,,it said my <3 Belongs to Neff #10...i was very excited to wear it....then the monson boys came...yup yup they did...CORY, MIKE, And yes of course JOE! after the game we all went to pawels....and I PLAYED PING PONG WITH CORY...he rocks my world he really does....then i went home for arounf 1ish..after dropping the coolest chic in town off...BRITTANY VAD....lol... Saturday CORY COULDNT GO OUT...he got in trouble with his parents for his $200 speeding ticket(that he got on the way home from Ware)  ooooopss...so ya me brit, kelley, ace, dave, tyler, fred, maxwell, heather and gina were at curts...it was fun i guess......Dave it will b ok.....LOL.....wow wow wow.... SAW CORY AT WORK TODAY....well we were actually put on registers near each other...he's so cute! ya i guess we r gonna hang out on thurs...who knows... I CAN"T STAY HOME WHEN MY PARENTS ARE IN FLORIDA...ahhh well ill have a groovy room at my fathers house.. in the basement...the room is redone...im excited...so who knows maybe i can have a small get together this weekend....like rly small....I CANT WAIT...mwhahahahahaha...my dads like no boys will b sleeping over...i think hell have to make an exception for the monson boys...hehehehhehehehe

(2 Let the whole thing pass me by | Close my eyes) Things r wonderful right now! [27 Sep 2004|10:17pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Kelly Clarkson---Break Away.. ] Alrighty the weekend that just passed was pretty wonderful im not gonna lie....Friday Night had so much fun..... But saturday was the bestest best day! :-).....i went to the movies with CORY, mike & Joe(his friends from monson...Joe was sexy...but i didnt look too much since its not him im interested in!), Brittany Vadnais(I Love her so much) and the one and the only ashlinn O'brien! so ill begin with the start of the night... me and brit go to pick up the boys in monson..(bc cory's madre wouldnt let him drive past midnight and we all wanted to hang out late so i offered to pick them up) so we get on the supposable road and we drive up this huge ass steep hill i mean like straight up...it was scary so i turned around and went down it which was even scarier...so we start driving then we see some ppl with a flashlite that we drive by...and then we r like "huh was that them" so i do a 3 pt turn and as we get to close to them it was ppl wlaking their dogs so i do another 3 pt turn right in front of them....which prob made us look like weird stalkers...so we try the next road...which was correcto...bc all of a sudden this boy goes running across the st then back again...LOL...i think it was mike...so then the 3 boys had to cram into my back seat..and my new car does not have a very big backseat...so we go back to ware i take my car up wit cory as shotgun and mike...ashlinn drove up wit brit and Joe... Go to c wimbleton...DONT C IT..we walked out...it was boring as shit...so then we go to the arcade..ashlinn wanted to leave and bring brit with her...but she wanted to stay...so she did and ashlinn went home...i felt bad but...yup....so then we had to go drop the boys back off...and then i slept over brittany's...she rocks my world! I must say it is great when the friends actually like u and im not known as just a Ware girl...it feels rly great..and i hope sumthing happens...bc i have such a good time when im with him...and who knows... *smiles big* :-D

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